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Prayer from a damaged soul

For so long I’ve wondered why, never stopping to think that all it took was a little detail. I, like many others have allowed the actions of others to dictate my happiness, sadness, excitement, joy, anger, and resentment. Now it is time for me to take a different approach and realize that life is what I make of it.

Selfishly I always felt like there’s no way that God will answer a prayer that involves specifics, selfishness, and details. I have somehow gotten lost in the façade that I can do it on my own as opposed to maintaining my faith and following the instruction of my favorite scripture; Proverbs 3:5-6, Trust in the Lord with all thy heart and lean not onto thine own understanding. In all the ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path.

So for all of the women and men who have found themselves just a bit too damaged, I invite you to borrow this prayer and embark on a changed journey.

Dear father I come to you in order to bare my soul in hopes of a clear and guided pathway. I have fell short of the glory that you have promised me. I have found myself drowning in the need for approval by others, whether it be their actions, their desires, or simply just there being. My happiness has been placed aside for far too long. I pray that you open my eyes and help me to see clear those things in which you have placed on this earth for me and blur those things which are not for me. I pray that you continue to guide my soul so that I may be full of the nutrients of your spirit in order to Praise your name, raise my children, and heal my soul. Takeaway that anxiousness and that feeling of loneliness that I have allowed to over shadow my happiness, for I now understand that you have already healed a mate who is waiting for an equally healed soul to join him. Patience is my flaw and I pray You teach me the importance of a little less complaining and a lot more silence.

When those negative thoughts cloud my head place positivity on my mind and enable me to focus on success. I understand that I am not perfect and I do not expect perfection but my expectations exceed mediocre attempts.There is so much more that I could bear, but you already know. This is only the beginning of a prayer from a damaged soul that request your healing. In all of your name, praises to the, Amen.

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A Little Something About Trust

What does trust mean to you? It’s something that takes forever to gain and only seconds to loose. It’s the bread and butter to all succesful relationships whether it be with the woman you love, the man you love, the GOD you worship, or the self you believe in.

Relationships are particularly sensitive when it comes to trust. Half of us can barely trust ourselves let alone trust another human being. Fact is it is hard to even figure out how to begin to open up and allow anyone to take hold of your trust. We meet people, we date, we spend time together, we grow, and then we trust. So how is it that it takes all of that to get, but all it takes is 1.2 seconds of a bad decision to loose. Sometimes we take each other for granted. We feel like we got each other so no matter what we will always have that person in our corner; nahhh wrong. They may be in your corner, but best believe they may be so far wedged in that corner due to hurt, pain, and resentment, that they may as well be gone. Im sure everyone has heard the reference about trust being like a crumbled piece of paper. Its perfect when its there, but when it gets crumbled it will never be perfect again. Its scary to think that this may really be true.

Trust affects everyone. You may have been the person being trusted or giving the trust, but either way everyone has been affected by trust. Its one of those things that can honestly never be figured out. We can only experiment with different remedies in hopes that it aides in regaining the trust that was gambled away, or that it coats that pain to make it easier to trust someone who lost your trust.

After thinking about this and reviewing all of my own issues with trust I have come up with this….. T-Total, R-Resolve, U-Understanding amongst a, S-Solid, T-Two

T-Total; yes it takes total (1+1=2) cooperation from both parties to even have a chance at it again. It doesnt matter if you lost it or gave it. Without one you cant have the other. R- Resolve; work together to first communicate the issue, then as a joint effort work to resolve the issue. If there is no resolve there can not be anymore trust because the problem will always be waiting to show its ugly face. U- Understanding; Not only do you have to resolve the issue and communicate, but you have to understand that right or wrong, both parties have something to be accountable for. You may feel like you did nothing wrong and it was totally that persons ignorance that made you take your trust away. That may be true, but you still have to accept and be accountable for you. Understand its not a me thing, its a we thing. S- Solid; Strenth is superior to weakness in this. T-Two; its 1+1=2. Not you, them, and everyone else.

Maybe this works maybe it doesnt; it only my theory……trust me on that one!