Reality

Staring at the wall is one of the calmest things for me. It opens my mind to all of the thoughts I have suppressed throughout the day. I think, I contemplate, I cry, I pray.

I face reality…………..

My reality is different from everyone else’s because that’s how GOD intended it to be. So why is it that my reality gets slammed when it doesn’t align with the reality of others.

See I was born different, I knew it at an early age. Never been a people person, a popular girl, a beauty queen; just a plain Jane. You think it changed throughout my teen years into early adulthood; hell no. My differences have made me and molded me to be the different individual that I am. Accepting my differences has been a struggle. I have allowed others perceptions of what I need to be, coordinate many actions in my life. I have robbed myself of the joy that life can bring on account of trying to fit in, please others, and submit to the none submissive. I allowed my reality, to be buried beneath the “you need to do this” and “the you should look like this”, and let’s not forget the “stop being so emotional”. Reality, reality, reality…….

Reality bites, but reality is truth. Reality will teach you some shit. Reality will hurt your fucking feelings so bad you will think GOD hates your tangled little guts. Reality will show you how to love and be loved. It will show you the meaning of trust and deception, the real from the fake.

It doesn’t take long to get slapped in the face with reality. Your perception had your mind so screwed up that that back hand of reality hit even harder than it needed to. Just see it for what it is, not what you want it to be, simply what it is. Dont allow your life to possess more turmoil than it needed simply because you refused to see what reality was trying to show you. Understand the plan for you will be shown wether you want to see it or not. Face reality sooner than later and realize your existence has a purpose.